IT'S OVER...

on Wednesday when we went for pre-op we found out that they were doing both eyes. I wasn't expecting that so it hit pretty hard when I started to go to bed. I called Meagan because I figured she would be awake because everyone else in the house was sound asleep here. Meagan was so sweet and she knew what to say to calm me down. I got down on my knees and prayed again (He has heard so much from me this week) before finally getting some sleep. My eyes were so sore on Thursday but I made it through that day ok. Then it came time to go to bed...I went to sleep ok but tossed and turned a lot during the night. I woke up at 3:30 and could not go back to sleep...again I started praying. I finally turned my clock off before it went off and I got in the shower. I then got Jon up and he got ready to go and we both woke Morgan up. She said she was going to miss us. We talked some more about what was going to happen and that neither one of us was leaving that place without her. She cried some more when we got there but she talked to the as Jon called him "The Sleepy Doctor" and asked him if it was gonna hurt. She didn't say much when her doctor came in with his scrubs on to talk to her. We got to stay in pre-op till they were ready to take her back to the operating room. The nurses that were going to be in there came and got her and let her take her stuff animal Tabby with her. She gave me a big hug and kiss then Daddy a big hug and kiss before walking out the room with them. I couldn't help but cry because she was going to go be put to sleep but also because she was being such a big girl about it. The next hour and 15 minutes was the longest I have ever on this earth had to sit through. When they came and got us the nurse prepared us as we walked back there and said that " she is disoriented and she is very upset but it is normal". When I got in recovery she was fighting the nurses and screaming. They said she had been screaming for me. That broke my heart to know that my baby was screaming and crying for me and I couldn't hear her or get to her. The nurse told me to sit in this rocking chair beside her bed and she picked Morgan up to untangle her iv and to give her to me. Morgan didn't know what she was doing so she was still fighting. Once she figured out I was who the nurse was giving her to she was like a monkey grabbing me. I held her so tight and wondered why in the world I had let them do this to my baby. She looked at me and her little eyes were so red and some blood was coming out a little. I held her and rocked while Jon talked to her. She started drinking some Sprite. Then he asked her if she wanted him to go let somebody else come back to see her. She wasn't talking much but when Meagan came back she got Meagan to crying when she looked up and told her that she loved her too. Then Nana and Pawpaw took turns coming back. I really enjoyed that hour and sitting there in that rocking chair rocking her. Grandma and Grandpa weren't able to come down because he had a conference he had to attend. When the hour of recovery was up and they had told us what to expect and what to do if we needed to call them...after all that it was time to take the iv out....and let's just say that I really didn't need that second amno test right before she was born...that chick has got some lungs. She screamed the most highest scream when that nurse pulled that tape off. We got her dressed and at first she wanted to ride down in the wheelchair but then she changed her mind and wanted me to carry her. Jon had went down to get the Jeep pulled under their covered place. We stopped and got Jon and I some lunch because we had fasted with her. She was sound asleep and we ate on the way back home. Jon asked her if she wanted to get on the couch, her bed or did she want her pallet in the floor like when she is sick. She wanted her pallet so I fixed that for her and we put her gown on. She went right to sleep I laid down on the couch then she woke up and asked me to come down there with her. Jon was watching the guys qualify for tomorrows race on tv. I was woken up by the phone ringing it was Stephanie (our pastor's sister) wanting to bring over a gift for Morgan. She has a daughter that is almost Morgan's age. They had brought her a coloring book w/colors, writing tablet, and tinker bell pencil. Nana and Pawpaw came over and brought her a polly pocket set and a new gown. Uncle Alan, Aunt Gail and Meagan came over and brought her a cat beanie baby. Jon and I had gotten her the remote control Lightning McQueen car that she had been wanting. Jon put the drops in her eye last night. I bet she asked 100 times "Is it gonna hurt". We let her sleep with us because I didn't know if it was gonna drain any more and I wanted her close by. She slept really good I woke up several times to check on her. She is so sweet and hasn't complained much with it hurting. She did say earlier that it "kind of hurts" to look down.

Sorry this was so long but I didn't take any pics of yesterday...it just wasn't one of those days for me. I was writing all this so I can copy and paste this in her Scrapbook along with her bracelet they put on her. I hope everyone is having a great weekend...I am going to spend time with my baby....ttfn
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